What would Paul Say…..

Thursday, October 6th, 2011

As we all know, yesterday another amazingly talent man was taken from this earth!

It makes me wonder, what would my uber geek brother Paul say about the passing of Steve Jobs?

Paul Passed of Liver Failure, and Steve of Pancreatic Cancer >> both men taken way to soon from this planet, and had so many more visions to bring to us! and there oh so geekish humor…

One thing as I was pondering the loss of Steve last night, and looking at him… I was like OMG! wait my brother and him kinda look alike?? and when I look close… he has a black shirt on, tucked in with blue jeans! I LOVE IT!

RIP Paul & Steve and I am glad you guys can talk where ever the heck you are now!

Please dontate:

American Liver Foundation. Your Liver. Your Life.

Pancreatic Cancer Research - Lustgarten Foundation

 

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life’s change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true. ~ Steve Jobs 2005

Life is a bear, and you just have to make it a teddy bear. ~ Paul Kitwin

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Categories: By Catherine Seven - AKA Pauls Sister, Steve Jobs

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Another year….

Monday, September 5th, 2011

Paul @ The Space Needle 1996

Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, Real love leaves a memory no one can steal….

Another entry I am posting, another moment I feel this pain I don’t wish upon anyone….

As I am writing this the pain in my heart is a pain I can’t explain as my husband try’s to understand, there are no words to express a day that not only did we have to say goodbye to my father, but also the day I had to say goodbye to my brother…

As I weep to Duane about how it’s not fair, I just wish there was something I could of done to make it all better for my brother, Tonight is a night and tomorrow is a day I hold my heart in pain as I miss my father, i wish the anniveresery isn’t the same day that 2 important men in my life are gone. I do know when Paul passed I looked at my mom with our strange Winiarski humor and say, let’s look at the bright side, Pauls passing on Dad anniversary of death makes it easier we only have to feel this pain one time a year… But I wish it was that easy, but it’s really not…
Every year on this day, the pain doesn’t get easier…

I love you so much Paul. This night is a night I saw you take your last breath in relief of leaving the place that brought you so much pain.
My entry on this page today isn’t going to make much sense as I can’t make sense of how I am truly feeling, I feel sad, I feel mad, I feel so many ways and so many things unanswered.
But one thing I do know I am mad, I am angry that 2 amazing men are not here with us, I am mad that we can’t have them here to join our journey. I do know I truely love my brother more then words can say, I love my father as I am truly daddy’s little girls.
I want all who read this or look at this post and know my brother Paul is amazing, the last years he had where not the true Paul we all know and I only wish we had that man still, I am so thankful to have the years I have had with him, the amazing times we had in Seattle together! The brother that showed me how to use chopsticks, took my on my first fairy ride, listening to The Romans, and giving me noggies! I want all to read this and know Paul is amazing, we miss him so much and wish he was here with us but he truly is in a better place, he is away from anything he was running from and is at peace. He is with my father.
I love u brother! I am sorry for your pain, and I hope u have found peace!
Daddy, I love you and miss you!

And now that I am closing my post, I am strangely thankful I only have to post this 1 time a year, so the tragedy is horrible but a blessing in a strange way!

Thank you to all the true amazing people in my brothers world!

~ His Sister, Catherine Seven

A goodbye isn’t painful unless you’re never going to say hello again. ~Author Unknown

Categories: By Catherine Seven - AKA Pauls Sister

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Friday, January 21st, 2011

Dear SON I”m sure you and dad are celebrating your special day , sure miss you but I’m sure you are sharing your great wit with all to put smiles on all . 45 you young man

Much LOVE Mom

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Sept 6th – Missing our loved ones

Sunday, September 5th, 2010

“You can shed tears that he is gone,
or you can smile because he has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that he’ll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all he’s left.
Your heart can be empty because you can’t see him,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember him only that he is gone,
or you can cherish his memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what he’d want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”

Paul, and Dad – We miss you more then word can say! But are thankful for all the memories we have to keep. I know you are with us in your own way, We love you & miss you and will see you both someday!

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Happy Birthday Son!

Thursday, January 21st, 2010

Paul and His Mother

Happy Birthday Son -

I’m sure you and your dad are enjoying your special day. I hope you are enjoying all the jokes and humor you add to all in heaven.

I miss you lots and as you always told me every time you called “I LOVE YOU”
I don’t have your address so can’t send a present but am throwing many many kisses and hugs to you.
Keep smiling and give yourself a pat on the back for all the happiness you brough to all…

I love you,

~Mom

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Jan 21st 2010 – Happy 44th Birthday Paul…

Wednesday, January 20th, 2010

To My Brother Paul…
Today is your birthday, Happy Birthday to you.
Knowing that you turned another year old I hold my breath…
I didn’t get to see you, but I could feel you in my heart.

Time has change over the year Paul, and there are things that haven’t changed…. One is how much you are missed.
Even though you may not be here, I still think of you every day…
there are days when my eyes fill with tears, and then there are days I look and stare with a smirk and wonder if you are near.
No mater where you are, you are still my brother and I love you dear..
You are someone who will always be a stone, a rock that made a monument in my life.
I am grateful to have you as a brother, I am saddened that you are gone, I am only hoping you are happy, and you have found peace, that you find that place of calm, understanding, that feeling of comfort that no matter what, when and where, you are a person that is loved & missed by so many!

May you enjoy this blissful day, wherever your soul is, that you will take your day of birth and remember what great years you had on this earth. I will take this day to remember all the fun times, all the memories of you being the person, I looked so much up to, and I wanted to be. I hope you are proud, and I hope you can relax.
Please enjoy this time with our Dad and please know that I love you.

Happy birthday brother, I love you!!!

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Hello Kitty was my Brothers Friend…

Paul would say Hello Kitty Makes me Smile!

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‘magic is a bridge’ he said at last’
a bridge that allows you to walk
from the visible world over into the invisible world,
and to learn the lessons of both those worlds’

Love you,
~ Your sister, Catherine Seven

Please submit more storys about Paul! I would love to hear them and share them, Paul has many great tales and would love to keep filling this site with just that… Thank u

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Dedication for Paul (Winiarski) Kitwin and Todd Ziegler

Saturday, September 26th, 2009

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Dedication for Paul @ Loyola High School.

Monday, September 14th, 2009

I got this wonderful message today:

Catherine,
I just wanted to send you a quick note and hope you can pass this information on to your mother and your brothers if they are interested.  Our 25 year class reunion for Loyola’s class of 1984 will be on October 2nd and 3rd of this year.  We have planted a tree in honor of your brother and another classmate of ours, Todd Ziegler, on the grounds of Loyola High School.  We will be adding a plaque with Paul and Todd’s names.  The dedication will be on Friday evening at the school grounds before the homecoming game.  All of your family members are invited to attend.  Please pass this along to your family members and I will get the definite time to you soon.

Thank you,

Mary Wojciechowski

I will post more once I get date and time!

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Reflection of Paul Kitwin

Sunday, September 6th, 2009

Today is the anniversary of my brother Paul, who passed 1 year ago today. Not only am I reminded of the pain today but reminded of what a WONDERFUL person Paul was…

Paul was a very special person to many different people, and touched many people, and animals in so many ways! I want to thank Paul for being the brother that I always looked up to, and wanted to be like, if it wasn’t for him in my life I can honestly say the path I led wouldn’t of been without him.. and I thank Paul for that…

Today not only do I remember/reflect on Paul, but also remember my father who passed 17 years ago today… and thanks to that STRONG man, the Winiarski’s are who we are… strong, caring and smart… My brother had allot of the positive traits of our father, and I got to be reminded of that when I had our older brother Chuck visit us last month! It was a great reflection of courage, love and dedication my brother Paul and Father Chuck will always be remembered by. Thank you my Family for being there! I love you all and Dad and Paul we all miss you soooooooo much!

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Place to remember Paul!

Friday, June 5th, 2009

Thank you Mom! We have a place to go and remember Paul…

After Paul’s passing, mom really wanted a remembrance spot for Paul, so she got in contact with an amazing local artist in Mankato MN (where Paul was born and raised). After she got the “ok” from mom’s side of the family, she reserved a spot where the Deusers lie and asked the artist to create a stone for Paul. Mom really wanted Sea Shells on it because during Paul’s last vacation to Hawaii, while he was there walking on the beach, he called mom and asked her what she wanted and all she said was for you to be happy! and some sea shells please (mom loves shells)
About Sea Shells on the stone: after Paul passed, Suzanne gave those shells to mom and she had the look of them carved into the stone for Paul.

To visit Pauls Rememberance Stone please go to Calvary Cemetery in Mankato MN
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PS – PAUL I miss you so much! Gosh Darn it! I want you to come home!

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Special Memories of Paul… by Redhawk

Wednesday, April 29th, 2009

I met Paul on The Answer Bag. Loved his Avatar of “Nelson” wearing sunglasses! Paul always gave his answers to people’s questions from his heart and in reading stories here, I can see why. His heart was truth, and kindness, humor and honest caring and respect for life. I wish I’d have known him better, but I’ve no doubt that I’ll run across him some day. He is not gone, but has only run ahead for a little while. I hope all of the good memories comfort his dear wife and family, I’m sorry for your loss, and for all who loved him from knowing him personally, and those he gave his friendship to but never got to shake his hand. Dance on the clouds, my friend.

“Nelson” Paul on Answer Bag… http://www.answerbag.com/profile/?id=133716

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Happy 43rd B-day Brother!

Wednesday, January 21st, 2009

Happy Birthday Paul

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The Hawaii Picture… January 2008 Kona, Hawaii by Diana Kitch

Tuesday, January 6th, 2009

January 2008 Kona, Hawaii

Here is a very special picture of Paul, his wife and there family vacation to Hawaii..
Thanks Diana for this!

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Special Memories of Paul by… Darrell DeRochier

Sunday, December 14th, 2008

I had the great fortune to meet Paul 14 years ago through his wonderful wife, Suzanne. Over the years Paul and I became very good friends, so much so that I considered him more of a brother than a friend. He was smart, witty, genuine, empathetic, funny, talented, thoughtful and an amazing friend. I still don’t want to believe that I will never see him again. The world seems a little scarier to me without him.

During times of difficulty and loss, Paul was my support. No one gave me the unique and generous support that Paul did. Paul was one of the very few people on the planet that I could actually cry in front of. His compassion and his wisdom helped me through some of my darkest days. There are no words to express the appreciation I feel for him helping me through those rough times.

What I’ll miss almost as much as Paul’s compassion was his innate sense of fun. He loved a good laugh and we continually pulled pranks each other over our 14 year friendship. He wrapped my entire car up in yellow police tape, switched the polarity on my light switches, left me ominous messages on my shower wall with Scrabble tiles, and made me outlandishly tacky gifts, like a lamp made from a prest-o-log with a black, plastic plant pot for a shade. (It worked, of course. Paul insisted that I plug it in and turn it on.)

I thought I’d pulled a good one on Paul when I left a seven foot fabric palm tree on his front porch while he and Suzanne were in Hawaii. (Heh-heh-heh). But after he returned he did not mention it at all. I asked him about it and showed him the picture, and he laughed, saying it was a good joke but the tree had been stolen before he and Suzanne had returned home. I believed him.

Ten months later the fabric palm tree came back to haunt me thanks to Paul’s creativity and patience. He staged it in our carport festooned with hundreds of blinking Christmas lights. It flashed so brightly that two of our neighbors had to keep their blinds closed. It was Christmas time and we had our outdoor lights up. Between the house lights and the flashing palm tree, our house looked like a gay disco from the 70′s. But the joke didn’t end there. Paul followed up with a calendar showcasing how the fabric palm tree had spent the last 10 months. There were pictures of it in Freemont tourist spots, in our friends’ yards, and in playgrounds. The December picture showed the fabric palm in a Christmas tree lot with the caption, “I think I’m adopted…”

In 1992 after I had to put my sweet, young cat, Trixie to sleep, Paul gave me one of the best pieces of advice I’ve ever received. Through my tears I asked Paul why Trixie was taken from me while she was still so young. Paul responded, “There is no why. There is only what you gave to her and what she gave to you.”

Paul gave me support and laughter and great food and heartfelt companionship over our 14 year friendship. I am a better person because I knew him. I will always miss him. But, mostly, as heavy as my heart is, I am filled with gratitude that I had him in my life.

Darrell DeRochier
Edmonds, Washington

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Special Memories of Paul… By Sharon

Thursday, October 16th, 2008

I met Paul through Answerbag, of course to me he was known as Nelson!…he was the funniest, kindest most adorable man i have met! He kept me smiling – no lauging – many a time, he had such a wonderful sense of humour, dry yet so witty.
He was also very mischievious!! I loved seeing his questions and waiting for his answers.
He loved his family dearly and spoke of his mother very fondly..i remember when he took her on holiday and was so excited about the trip. I couldnt wait for him to return to i could hear all about it!
He loved his pets and i often asked about his ‘family’ especially Fiona.. i had a bit of a bond with her i reckon! lol.

I was very sorry that i didnt get to know his wife, but Paul had a very private side to him.. My sincere condolences are with you all… and you Catherine of course.
I feel richer for having known him, and I will never forget him.. he was truly an awesome bagger!!!!

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Special Memories of Paul… peterpam

Wednesday, October 15th, 2008

I am only an Answerbag friend who has been absent from the site for a while. I had a lot of fun with Paul and respect him in every way. We are very different but I do believe that he had a mutual respect for me also. I will miss him greatly and for what it is worth my prayers are with his family.
~peterpam

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Dearest Son, Paul James Francis…

Wednesday, October 1st, 2008

Paul & Mom

Dearest Son, Paul James Francis… (Paul was for Uncle Paul, and James Francis was after Grandpa Deuser.)

Thanks for the memories of letting me hold your hand and the kiss as you joined your dear dad. September 6th 2008. Paul, thank you for the many calls “Mom I love you so much…” Yes Paul I love you too, SO MUCH! I will never forget the day you were born, looking at you I knew what a special son you where. That smile was there the day you were born and never left.

I know you are with us in spirit. The precious times shared with Paul, will be cherished for every. The day Dad helped you ride that 2 wheeler in front of the house. When someone you love becomes a memory, the memory becomes a treasure. Thanks for all the hugs, you have left a mark in my heart forever. Your presence in our lives is truly a gift. The joys of the saxophone, the scouts, you at the lake with your great friends, (Mr. Thiem, your teacher) you creating photos in your dark room in our basement, always reading a book, – WOW what a son.

I am sure your enjoying you peace and laughter with Dad, Grandma and Grandpa Deuser…
When someone one you love becomes a memory, the memory becomes a treasure…

P.S Catherine, what a work of art you are doing for your brother – Friends and Family please add your thoughts & thank you to those who did!

Love always, Mom

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Special Memories of Paul… by Daniel

Tuesday, September 30th, 2008

Even though it had been 9 years since I had seen him, I still consider Paul my best friend. I regret not staying on contact with him, and I wish I had been able to say goodbye.
~ daniel

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Update on Memories by…. Rick Pepper

Tuesday, September 23rd, 2008

Mike reminded me that I hadn’t shared more on the “Star Floors” story. IIRC Mike, Paul and myself stayed at my folks place the night before and were up until all hours filled with excitement (delusion) of seeing the real Star Wars characters at this flooring show. Then on the way back there was the stop at some bar/grill near Madison Lake (IIRC) where we played that baseball arcade game – like this photo…

Chuck jr. was there as well IIRC. Then there was the bowling game at the cabin that competed with the custom bunk-beds for that little room. Then there was the drawer of candy, ah yes..

The Winiarski's Bowling Alley - At the Cabin

http://marvin3m.com/baseball/dlx57.htm

http://www.arcade-museum.com/game_detail.php?game_id=12841

See Ricks fist memory post: http://www.paulkitwin.com/2008/09/20/special-memories-of-paul-rick-pepper/

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Special Memories of Paul… Mike Koenigs

Tuesday, September 23rd, 2008

Hi Paul,

I can hear your voice as clear today as the first time I met you in first grade. I liked you the minute I met you. Your easy laugh, creative mind, love of the uncommon, weird and willingness to care less about what anyone else thought.

Dang.

I remember clearly the “house of shag” – the Winiarski residence.

The drive to Minneapolis for “Star Floors” with your dad in the Winiarski van (interior of shag, I might add). Yes, that was 1977 or so. And if I remember correctly, there was Craig Rath, a Bessler or two, Rick Pepper, Paul Ziegler and perhaps someone else… Anyway, there were Star Wars characters there and we all loved them!

Always a man of strange interests (our in-common theme), conversations about conspiracy theories, UFOs, guns, bombs, anarchy, sci-fi, the strange, odd and uncommon always went into the late evening.

You’re always one who laughed at any stupid antic or joke. Especially if it involved nuns, Jesus, meat, pirates or general silliness of any sort. Especially religion.

The world needs more guys like you. I miss you terribly even though we didn’t see much of each other in the past few years.

I hope to hear a voice or laugh someday that reminds me of you.

Love,
Mike

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